Still ongoing without a laptop, so sorry, no blog.
still without laptop charger.
I’m without a laptop charger for the next few days so am unable to blog
I just found out that tomorrow is world mental health day today, and this has inspired me to talk about the state of my own mental health. To put it bluntly, its fucked. I suffer from Bipolar disorder, or as it used to be known, Manic Depression. This means that at times I can be incredibly low and lethargic with no motivation to do anything, and at other times I can be all systems go, with a great deal of hyperactivity, and a fairly overactive personality.
Right now I can feel myself slipping from the hyperactive manic side, sliding back into depression, possibly as a result of being too overactive over the past few weeks. The problem with being manic is that it isn’t the opposite of being depressed, but rather its reflection, the similarities are all too similar, you may, like me, still neglect personal care, in order to focus, you may still have trouble sleeping, because you become focused on whatever is occupying your time, you may also find it difficult to concentrate but in different ways from the depressive side of things, and then if that isn’t bad enough, sometimes, but not all the time, you can fell your mood descending, its like in a cartoon when a rain cloud forms over one persons head, and you can see them rolling in, and unfortunately there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it, you might try and fight it, by loading up the things that you try and do, a mad blitz of housework, or a barrage of emails, to make up for the days where productivity will be zero. However I’ve found that doing this makes the initial onset of the depressive side of my disorder worse, because on top of the depression tiring me out, I’m tired already, and feel the effects twice as bad.
Having been initially diagnosed with depression after the birth of my daughter and later re diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, the last few years have been a bit of a bumpy ride, I’ve tried medication, although I chucked this due to some adverse side effects, and whilst I can by no means say I have a complete handle on my condition, I can at least say that I’m getting better at coping with it, I’m forcing myself to be more active when I’m depressed, and channelling my mania into more productive avenues than my old stand by of drinking myself into a stupor and its actually having a marked effect with my work as a councillor and within the community.
I took to making miniature scenes from Movie, TV, Games and Comics for the centrepieces for my wedding and I haven’t really done any since, but today I put the finishing touches on this, a scene from The Empire Strikes Back, and the Battle of Hoth.
I don’t usually review TV shows unless I’m doing them as an entire series (season for the Americans in the audience), but as readers of this blog will know I’m a massive Doctor Who fan. So much so, that I’ve even written my own oral history of the series, (see here). So you can imagine how much I was looking forward to tonight’s brand new episode, featuring the brand new 13th Doctor (Jodie Whittaker).
I was not let down, the show managed to capture the dark tonal moods that the latter episodes of the series have been encompassing, all whilst maintaining an air of whimsy, which is what you expect from Doctor Who. Jodie Whittaker manages to come into the role almost instinctively, laying to rest all my fears of whether a woman could play the role of the Doctor (a little sexist I know, but men have been playing the Doctor since the shows beginning in 1963). But Jodie managed it brilliantly.
To be completely honest, my only problem with this episode is the over abundance of Northern accents that were present throughout the story, and this includes the Doctor’s herself, I know its a terrible thing to say, but Northern accents have a tendancy to grate on me a bit, which is bizarre, that one of my best friends is from Doncaster, but thats life.